Tag: Helpless

Helplessness

InfluenzaRecently, someone very near and dear to me has been coping with the flu; high fever, lethargia, throat infection, the whole bit. For all our medical knowledge, influenza really kicks our asses and there’s little we can do about it. Luckily, our bodies are amazing machines and generally, with proper care (the right food and rest) we fight it off. Unfortunately, that can take a while and in the meantime, you’re just miserable. I’ve generally been of little real help, but what comfort and advice I can extend, I’ve given. After you’ve done that, the only thing you that remains is to be patient and that can be a massive pain. Both for the one who’s sick and for me. I’ve had a lot of practice when my parents were ill and for some reason I was better at it then. Perhaps because they were my parents, perhaps because what they were dealing with was a hundred times worse than the flu, but I find myself getting frustrated more now. It doesn’t help that the one who’s sick and I have very different approaches to being sick. I generally want to be left alone. I like to suffer endure in solitude. Mostly because I know I’m insufferable. She’s quite the opposite. I try to be a good person and give her what she wants, but it’s hard! Mostly because I have the feeling it doesn’t help to solve the problem, which I find infinitely more important than easing the suffering. Frustrating.