I woke up poorly, I’m feeling under the weather, I can’t focus or concentrate, I decided to deactivate my Facebook account (since I was only really using to play chess, which I’d rather do in person), invoking the ire of some, and annoying questions of others, and now I just found out my mother is not eligible for the experimental treatment that was her last shot, short of a miracle, at beating her cancer. Of course, after my mother dried her tears she became annoyingly optimistic again, which should instill me with a sense of happiness and tranquility, and it probably would have if I wasn’t in such a foul mood.
God, I’m so worn down; I’m cranky, low on energy, melodramatic, unable to concentrate, tired and constantly slightly under the weather. I crave human contant but want nothing more than to be left alone. I’m getting really tired of myself. Ugh.
Damn, I was hoping that treatment would bring a miracle into your life. You deserved it! *hugs*