Things are pretty rough right now and I’m starting to dread the really rough times that are still to come. I think I’ve started to lose my ability to bounce back from disappointments, because it just seems like one disappointment after another. My problems can be categorised into a few general groups;
- My mother’s ill and is almost certainly dying, and everything that comes with that.
- My finances are shakey.
- Relationships that I invested a lot of time in and had a lot riding on are falling apart.
- Miscellaneous.
This reminds me of something someone once told me, that in general, every problem can be summed up into one of four categories; 1) love-life, 2) family, 3) finances, 4) work. In that sense, I’m glad things at work are stable (although I’m being underpaid). It’s those little things that keep me from drowning. Sometimes I have to quietly remind myself that I’ve got no option but to deal, and that there’s really nobody out there that’s going to lift a finger to help out because they have their own things to deal with. I feel like I have regressed somehow, because I had a very clear understanding of that cold fact up until a little while ago.
Well, there’s a long weekend coming up, and hopefully I’ll get to chill out a bit, do some gaming, and see my mother. Next week we’ll go at it with renewed reluctance. :)
.: PUBLIC SERVICE ANNOUNCEMENT
Moulsari’s phone got stolen yesterday and she lost all her numbers. If you feel like she should have your number, send her an SMS.
but I love you still …
I’m sorry, but this long distance thing is breaking me up…it’s breaking us up. :(
If Mouls’ phone got stolen, how would sending her a Text work?:)
Her phone got stolen, but she got a new SIM-card so she still has her number.
Ah, cool.
oh darn, and I did it all for you, you know. I thought you liked having international friends.
I’m a bit late in replying and I don’t know if you still feel this way, but I hope you realise that this (“… and that there’s really nobody out there that’s going to lift a finger to help out because they have their own things to deal with. “) is total BS. Yes, it’s harder for you than for most everyone else, but you have people around who want to help, who will do just about anything to make things better for you. Use that.
It is my experience that this is not the case. Sure, perhaps someone will offer help, but I’ve found that there’s always strings attached that seem to outweigh the help offered. Either that or people try to offer help I don’t need. If I need help doing X, and you make me soup instead, while that’s really nice of you, that’s not really what I’m talking about here.
*angry grumbling*