I decided to talk to someone – a professional. I’m not well. I’m not who I was, or who I could be, who I should be. It’s getting to the point where I can’t keep my worlds separate any longer. I can’t prevent problems in one area from spilling over into other areas. I got an e-mail today which was rather difficult to deal with, and it won’t let me go. I can’t push it aside, and I can’t keep it from throwing off my game at work.
But I am going to steel myself, temper my iron and redouble my efforts to regain control of myself. In the meantime, I will continue improving myself, turning myself into who I want to be, who I know is inside of me.