I wish I was the fearless and endless well of love and support for my friends and family that some people think I am. Unfortunately I’m not. I want to take all your burdens away. I want my shoulders to be broad enough to carry all the load. I want more than anything to help, but I know that I can’t and that if I will try it won’t end well. I’m always reminded of the cabin pressure loss procedure on planes; first put the oxygen mask on your own face before helping others. You’re no use to others when you’ve suffocated. I have to make sure I take care of myself first before I take care of others, no matter how much love, respect and admiration I have for the people that I want to help.
