Journal

This is a great episode of P&T’s Bullshit about genetically modified food. I saw it some time ago while I was in the U.S. and I just stumbled across it online. Here’s the links. It’s interesting. Try it. Really.
P&T – Bullshit – Eat This! – Part 1
P&T – Bullshit – Eat This! – Part 2
P&T – Bullshit – Eat This! – Part 3

I went back to work today, probably way too soon considering how tired and mentally drained I still feel, but I’m hoping that getting into somewhat of a routine is going to do me well. I’m currently almost done battling my way through tons of e-mail and as I do so my todo list is growing and growing.

I’m spending a lot of time in Hoorn, which is good. My sister is kind of coming down from all the excitement of the last few weeks (as am I) and I can start to see the cracks appear in her armour. We’ve started throwing things out and packing things up. Of course, her conservative approach to throwing things out is bugging me a bit, but I’m keeping in mind that it’s not really my stuff we’ll be moving and I’m trying to bite my tongue whenever she decides to pack something up she hasn’t seen in a dog’s age rather than just binning it.

Going to work from Hoorn by train brought back some tiring memories. For anyone of you who wants an accurate (and hilarious) description of what a morning rush hour train-ride from Hoorn to Amsterdam is like, I suggest you go and talk to Sam, who has nothing but love for that stretch of railway and the people that travel it. :)

Everything that has happened over the last few weeks has thrown my body off a bit. I’ve been sleeping poorly, eating poorly and generally getting next to no real exercise. Not feeling so great in that regard. I’m sure my immunity is low right now and I feel something pushing against it, so I’m hoping that by injecting a little bit of mundanity into my life I’ll be able to hold off whatever’s bugging me. (!)

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This makes me miss Forkie! :)

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Got my phonebill for this month: 463,41 euro. Ouch.

I’ve been living in Hoorn pretty much since I came back from Italy, and it’s been nice being in my mother’s house, with my brother and sister. I’m not sleeping very well, though, but I made promises to a lot of people that I’d finally try and get some rest, so I’m making an effort. My boss has been great, basically telling me that I can come back whenever I’m ready for it, and should I want to work only half days that it would be fine, too. I might just take some time, if only to help my sister get ready by packing up and throwing out. In the meantime, I’ve been neglecting a bunch of people that deserve my attention, and through my mother’s death got reaquainted with some people that deserve my attention as well. Hopefully, the time that I once invested in my mother and her illness can now be put into those people. For now, however, I am enjoying being lazy just a little bit, so I hope that everyone who is waiting for, or expecting a call forgives me tardiness.

Today was the cremation. Even more people showed up than yesterday. I spoke well, I thought, and the whole thing was a beautiful, touching event. I am exhausted. Perhaps I can start living for myself now.