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~20 min, K8, started at 06:55, morphing into a milder K7 for another ~15 min. Almost no tearing or congestion this time.

Heaviest attack yet. A 40 minute K8 attack, starting at 06:45. I am absolutely exhausted.

So, my cluster started eight days ago, and I’ve had two pain free days and one double attack. Almost all attacks have come between six and eight o’clock in the morning, giving me a 75% chance of waking up with one of these fucking things. As you might expect it means my sleep is less than relaxed and even on days where I don’t get an attack I wake up tired.

People always say the same thing; “just try to relax.” And it’s one thing if you don’t know better, but I swear, if one more person that should know better suggests relaxing on order to deal with or prevent the anxiety, I might do something terrible.

Back to my scheduled mantra: life is beautiful, life is beautiful, life is beautiful, life is beautiful, life is beautiful.

Ah, sod it.

~20 minute K8, starting at a little before 07:00. Woke up because I thought I was crying in my sleep but it turned out to be my right eye tearing badly.

While many attacks all group together early in the morning, I still don’t have the metronomic attacks that a lot of others describe.

Had a 30 minute, K7 attack starting at 06:30.